Monday, January 26, 2009

Finally I feel like an adult

There are times in life, in my life anyway, that you get to examine where you are at and where you are going. And, in the process of doing such, you may find things that surprise you. After becoming a mom for a second time, I finally feel like an adult. I know this sounds crazy because I known I've been adult for awhile now. When I was a teenager, I used to wish and wait for the day that I was on my own and could make my own choices without having to clear it with anyone. I officially mark the day that happened when I moved out of my parent's home and became someone's wife - my wedding day. Of course, I was able to make choices for myself long before that, but it was always in the back of my mind that I needed to run things by my parents, partcularily because I lived in their home and under their roof. Regardless, I made choices. After I got married, I had to make more choices, but this time with the person I chose to spend the rest of my life with. Well, we've recently made a few choices in our life that we decided upon together, and without permission from anyone else, and that's what made me feel more like an adult than anything else.

Change #1: We changed banks. I know insignificant to most, but it took almost a year for us to complete. The main reason I was afraid or better yet hesistant to change was my mom works for the bank we were thinking of leaving. I didn't want there to be any type of hurt feelings there, like the bank she works at wasn't good enough for us anymore. It wasn't that. We wanted a bank branch closer to our home, something that wouldn't take us 30 minutes to drive to simply make a deposit. So, we switched banks and no, this bank doesn't put more money in our bank account each week or give us anything special for banking there, it was just time for us to make a change.

Change #2: We changed churches. Unlike with the bank change, this decision took us less than three weeks to decide. After a Christmas Eve Eve service we went to, Kevin and I both felt that we were missing out on something going to the lutheran church we belonged to for three years. This other church's members were excited to be worshipping God and after all we're all going to the same place after we die, so why shouldn't we be excited and have some enthusiasm in the way we worship. We found another church close to our home that is non-demoninational and where those that worship there have energy, are excited and passionate about worshipping. We've gone to four services now and each service is different with a crystal clear message you can relate to and wonderful worship music. Brooklyn can even attend Sunday school, which has been such a blessing to her. I jump out of bed on Sundays to get ready to go to church, something I haven't done in a long time. And, as we're leaving church on Sunday all of us feel pumped up for the day and ready to tackle the week ahead. Leaving the Lutheran church was a difficult decision, particularly for Kevin because he didn't want to make his parents think that what they taught him growing up didn't mean much to him, because it did. But, the first Sunday the pastor spoke about how parents bring their kids to faith, but it's up to the kids to take off with it and make it their own. And, that's what we're doing and we couldn't be happier about our decision. God is really working in our lives. We couldn't and probably wouldn't have made this change without Him.

And, of course my two beautiful girls remind me everyday that I am an adult, I am their mother, the one that they look to take care of them, to teach them, to raise them and to love on them. But I tell you what, changing banks and changing churches really made me sit back and realize how far I've come, and made me finally feel like an adult...good timing, right since I'll be 29 this year?!

Friday, January 09, 2009

I realize I haven't blogged recently,
but I have a really good excuse,
okay two really good excuses... So, who can blame me?